My wife abandoned me and our children two years ago, at a time when things were at their worst.
When Anna stormed out of our apartment with nothing but a suitcase and the cold, “I can’t do this anymore,” I was left standing there with our four-year-old twins, Max and Lily.
We were a family for one minute, then I was alone with two kids and a mountain of expenses.
I was a software programmer at a computer business that promised great profits, but some shady things transpired, and it went bankrupt before we realized it. I went from earning a six-figure salary to receiving unemployment checks overnight.
I could see the disappointment in Anna’s eyes the day I delivered her the news. She was a marketing executive and one of the most presentable women I’d ever seen. But I never imagined she would depart during difficult times.
I drove for ride-sharing businesses at night and delivered groceries during the day.
All the while, I was juggling childcare. Max and Lily were upset and kept asking about their mother.
Fortunately, my parents were close. They assisted with the twins at night and whenever I needed them, but they were unable to assist financially.
Max and Lily, however, were my lifeline. Their little arms around me at the end of a long day, their tiny voices whispering, “We love you, Daddy,” pushed me forward. I couldn’t let them down.
I’m glad the second year after Anna went was so different. I got a freelance coding project, and the customer was so impressed with my skills that he offered me full-time remote employment with his cybersecurity firm.
The salary wasn’t six figures, but it was stable. We relocated to a cozier apartment, and I began to care for myself again. I went to the gym, cooked nutritious meals, and set a routine for the kids.
And then, exactly two years later, I saw Anna again.
While Max and Lily were at preschool, I was at a café near our new home catching up on work.
She sat alone at a corner table, head down, tears streaming down her cheeks.
This woman appeared worn. Her coat had faded, her hair was dull, and the heavy circles under her eyes indicated a lack of sleep.
So what happened? Why was she crying in a random trendy coffee shop? I knew I shouldn’t care. I should ignore her, finish my drink, and leave right away. But she was, after all, the mother of my kids.
Her eyes met mine, and her expression changed from sh0ck to humiliation.
Leaving my cup and laptop on the table, I approach the woman who had broken our home.
“You left us. You walked out without any remorse. And now, two years later, I find you crying in a café? What’s going on?”
Her head shook again. “I can’t explain it, but leaving you was so wrong. I lost my job almost immediately after. I survived on my savings; my parents sent me some money, but they cut me off after a few months. The people I thought were my friends disappeared when I needed them most.”
“I miss you,” she croaked, sniffling. “I want to come back.”
Anna reached across the table, her hand hovering close to mine. “David, please. I know I don’t deserve it, but I’ll do anything to make it right. I’ve been living in cheap apartments, hopping from one temp job to another. I’ve had time to think. I realize now what I lost.”
I pulled my hand back. “You didn’t think about Max and Lily, did you? Not once in two years. In fact, you haven’t even mentioned them since I sat down.”
I became increasingly disgusted as I reflected on the situation.
“Please, David. Just give me a chance.”
I stood, turning my back to her. “No,”
I returned to my table, snatched up my laptop, and left.
The Spiritual Meaning Of Waking Up At 1AM, 2AM, 3AM, 4AM, And 5AM
There are 14 main meridians that run through the body, 12 of which are aligned with the 24-hour clock. This means that there are two hours a day when a meridian – which runs through a certain part of your body – becomes the main one.
The meridians are related to body parts and processes, as well as emotions and experiences. In fact, the time you wake up can tell you which meridian is disturbed.
The time of night greatly determines what happens when you wake up. It is also important to consider how often you wake up at night. If you wake up every night between 3 and 5 a.m., it may mean that you are experiencing a spiritual awakening.
This is especially true if you never wake up during the night and there is no obvious reason (like going to the bathroom) why you woke up.
Spiritual significance of waking up at 1:00 a.m.
Physical: You may have circulation problems (especially your heart) or your gallbladder.
Mental: It means you have too much worry in your heart and mind. And these worries and resentments are now testing you.
Spiritual: You need energy. You are giving more than you are getting, and it is wearing you down. You may not be open to receiving, but you also may not know how to make yourself happy, so you rely on the idea of goals or the approval of others to do it for you.
Spiritual Significance of Waking up at 2 a.m.
Physical: You may be having digestive problems, either related to your small intestine or your liver. You may be eating or drinking too much or too little.
Mental: This is usually due to unresolved pockets of energy that you accumulated in early or middle childhood. When you were young, your inability to process what they meant made you either avoid or resist the circumstances in which they arose. Even today, it still has an impact on you.
Spiritual: You need to eliminate those old, limiting, inherited beliefs and ideas you have about yourself that you acquired before you were even aware of what was going on.
Spiritual meaning of waking up at 3 a.m.
Physical: You may have problems with your lungs. It may simply be an inability to breathe deeply and relax.
Mental: You need guidance and direction. Although you are beginning to have an awakening in your life, many things are still very new to you, so you are literally waking up in the spiritual “witching hour” (which is not necessarily a bad thing) to absorb more of the information you need.
Spiritual: Since 3am is the time when the veil between dimensions is at its lowest, it is possible that energies are trying to communicate with you (past loved ones, guides, etc.). It is also possible that, because you are becoming more sensitive to subtle energies, your body is waking up when there is more going on in the physical world. Stay awake and write down any messages you receive or ideas that pop into your head at this time.
Spiritual significance of waking up at 4 a.m.
Physical: You may have bladder or sweating problems. This is the time when your body temperature is lowest, so you may be too hot or too cold.
Mental: you may be too “hot or too cold” in your personal life, feeling both very fulfilled and sidelined by doubt. Know that this is part of the process, and will help you understand balance and duality.
Spiritual: You are in a time of ascension, upliftment and great change in your life. As you usher in the new, you must strive to accept letting go of the old.
Spiritual significance of waking up at 5am.
Physical: You may be having problems with your large intestine, or with your diet and nutrition.
Mental: You may not be convinced that you deserve the love of others or your own well-being. You are probably too caught up in your self-critical state of mind to really embrace all the amazing things you have built for yourself.
Spiritual: You are reaching a high point in your life where you are finally empowered, positive and thriving.
Waking up between 3 and 5 am can be a sign of a spiritual awakening.
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